Baby E Update

I know … I know … I suck.  I can’t blog to save my life recently? I don’t know why.  Between working two jobs (one full time and teaching Sunday school), taking/picking E up from day care, getting E ready for day care (it’s amazing the time involved), volunteering with the youth group, going to synagogue, blah, blah, blah, you’d think I’d have tons of time.  But alas I don’t.  I think of blog ideas …. but then never get around to posting them.

Anyway, while E and D are currently napping I thought I’d take a minute and update how he’s doing (and maybe us in general).

So (forgive me … it’s been so long I can’t remember the last thing I wrote!) life is busy (obviously) but generally pretty good.  We’re trying to buy a house (once we find it) and when that’s settled will maybe start trying to have another baby.

E is doing amazing.  At his 15 month check up he weighed 20 lbs (he’s small!) and was 29.5 inches tall.  I still can’t believe I have such a tiny baby but I’m fine with it!  Apparently his gross motor is delayed (D didn’t walk until 18 months so this isn’t a huge surprise) but his fine motor is great and his verbal is advanced! (What do I know!)  He can say: mama, dada, Pop-Pop, Bubbie, no, hat, ball, waffle (sort of), and hi.  He can sign: blow a kiss, thank you, please, more and milk.  He also understands some body parts (where are your: eyes, ears, head, belly button and mouth — mouth is his favorite).  D and I are constantly amazed at how wonderful he is.

D is doing really well too.  A while ago he started working full time (while he was in grad school/watching E he was working part time) and really loves his new job.  I’m glad that he’s happy.

My job is going great.  I took on more responsibility and though in some ways it’s overwhelming, it’s also really great to know they trust me so much.

Day care is fairly successful as well for E (or at least as successful as it can be).  I still miss him desperately, but I’m glad to know he’s in good hands with people who really enjoy being around him.

Our biggest baby E (I guess I should start calling him Toddler E but I can’t bring myself to do that!) news is that he started walking!

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12 Month Milestones

According to Baby Center a 10 months old can: (naturally I’m late again — he turns 13 months in a week!)

Mastered Skills (most kids can do):

Imitates others activities: Absolutely — he loves doing that.

Jabbers wordlike sounds: Yup!

Indicates wants with gestures: All the time–and he gets upset when you can’t figure out what he wants.

Emerging Skills (half of kids can do):

Says one word besides mama and dada: Not even close.

Takes a few steps: Nope.  He doesn’t independently take steps.

Understands and responds to simple instructions: When he wants to he will.  So he can but sometimes chooses not to do so.

Advanced Skills (a few children can do):

Scribbles with crayons: If he holds a crayon he tries but doesn’t always get something on the page.

Walks well: Nope … but we know he’s behind on the gross motor stuff.

Says two words besides mama and dadaNope — he’s just making sounds.

 

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Baby E: 12 Months Old

[Oh that I had a computer in my brain -- I often think out posts but then never find the time to actually write them!]

Dear baby E:

I simply cannot believe you are already a year old.  I remember finding out I was pregnant and crying as I asked daddy to come look because I thought I saw a second line.  I remember telling bubby, zayde, PopPop and savta that I was pregnant and how excited they were.  Your great grandma was so excited she couldn’t keep the news to herself.  Although your great grandpa died before he found out about you, he lives on in you — your middle name is for him.

Daddy and I have spent some time looking at old pictures and videos.  We remember the first time you tracked something with your eyes.  The first time you picked up a toy.  How excited we were at Passover when you sorta/kinda rolled over for the first time.  When you sat up without assistance.  When you started pulling up and now when you’re trying to take steps (when we’re holding your hands).

You have grown so much this past year.  You went from a semi-chubby, splotchy baby to a gorgeous thin baby.  EVERYONE tells us how cute you are, how well behaved, how attentive, etc.  They cannot believe it.

A lot of people when they see you with a baby will tell you to enjoy every second.  Although that’s a bit unrealistic since (a) I’m not with you every second of your life anymore (unfortunately) and (b) there are going to be some less than fun moments.  Even so, I have enjoyed every second of being your mommy.  I love playing with you — I love a bit less your latest trick of pulling the top of mommy’s hair to stand up.  You get so excited when we turn away from you then “boo” back to your face.

You’ve finally started sprouting some teeth.  No hurry there!  You still nurse though it’s gone down.  And you’ve started drinking soy milk (you had 1.5 t of regular milk and your lips blew up so big it looked like botch plastic surgery!).  And even though you’re allergic to plain milk, you can have yogurt, ice cream, pizza and your all time favorite — quiche!

You’re still wearing cloth diapers during the day and disposables at night.  You’re liking daycare more and mommy is having a slightly easier time taking you/dropping you off.  Though the smile I get when I come to pick you up near melts my heart.

You are so mobile now!  You can’t walk on your own but can when we hold you.  You also LOVE pulling yourself up and will try to use anything you can as a walking toy.

Many babies like music … you seem to have a genuine appreciation.  Whenever music is playing you do this little “bop” whereas you bop up and down.  It’s adorable.  And I’m curious to see what the future holds for you with regards to music.

I love you more than I could possibly say and more than I could possibly have imagined.

love,

Mommy

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E’s First Halloween

So I know some people are huge “into” Halloween.  They decorate their yards and their doors.  Hang cobwebs from their front trees.  Stock up on candy.  Plan their costumes months in advance.

Then there’s me.

I’m not “into” Halloween.  We live in an apartment and learned our first year here we don’t get trick-or-treaters.  So we don’t stock up on candy that will either sit or we’ll consume.  Since we don’t get trick-or-treaters and we don’t go partying we don’t really get dressed up either.

But this year is a little different.  Why?  Because it is Baby E’s first Halloween!

Now as much as I’m not going to get dressed up you can bet your tush I’m dressing my adorable son up.  But what to dress him up as?

I looked online and found quite a few options but none really spoke to me.  Plus they were all super expensive and what’s really the point.  So I did what anyone would do — I asked for suggestions on Facebook.  And a very nice friend loaned me a costume (picture below).

So on Halloween I send him to daycare with his “My 1st Halloween” onesie on looking adorable, naturally.  Surprise to find out when I pick him up that he didn’t nap.  Maybe he was too nervous to nap?  Too excited?

Regardless, the second we got home around 4:30 (I left work early especially so we could go out!) he passed out.  I mean literally.  We’re in the car singing to each other, I pull into the parking lot and zzzzzzzzzzzzz.  What to do?

I tossed him into his crib and decided he could sleep until 6.  Which naturally came and went.  Finally around 7 he woke up.  I quick fed him and threw him into his costume as D walked in the door from work.  He looked adorable so we took a few quick pictures and raced out the door.

And naturally it had started to rain.

Now remember, they don’t do trick-or-treating in our neighborhood so I went to my sister’s neighborhood.  We were late (8pm) and she’d already given away all of her candy.  So we went to a few houses (literally — 3) and then decided to go home.  It was late, rainy and D had work to do.

A memorable first Halloween. But at least he looked adorable!

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11 Month Milestones

According to Baby Center an 11 month old can: (naturally I’m behind again — he turns ONE YEAR OLD in two weeks — oy!)

Mastered Skills (most kids can do):

Says dada and mama to the correct parent: He makes the “dada” and “mama” sounds but not to the right parent.

Plays patty-cake: As in he’ll clap his hands? Yes.  As in he’ll “roll” his hands and “pat” his belly? No.

Stands alone for a couple of seconds: Nope.  Though he can for about a split second!

Emerging Skills (half of kids can do):

Imitates others’ activities: I’m not sure so I guess we’ll say no.

Puts objects into a container: He can do this now … I’m just not sure if he started before 11 months or now.

Understands simple instructions: When the instruction is “no” he understands!

Advanced Skills (a few children can do):

Drinks from a cup: If we hold the cut he’ll drink from it.  He actually loves doing it! (same as last month)

Says one word besides “mama” and “dada”: Nope.  He does babble and makes grunting sounds though.

Stoops from standing position: I’m not sure what this means so we’ll say no.

 

Someone loves pumpkin!

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Baby E: 11 Months

Dear Baby E:

I cannot believe you are eleven months old already — next month is a year.  Where did it go?  It seems like only yesterday I was feeling you kick and waiting to meet you (and find out if we were having a girl or a boy!).  And now you’re here … and have a personality … and opinions … and skills.

You still don’t have any teeth and since you still nurse … mommy is really happy about it!  I’m perfectly content for you to not get teeth until you’re well over a year old.

You are crawling now and getting around fairly well.  Though your crawl isn’t exactly the most efficient.  You sort of drag your right leg under you.  But you can stand up so I know there isn’t anything actually wrong with the leg!

You are still in a daycare and your teachers love you!  Though they don’t love the cloth diapers – but too bad!  We try to only put you in disposables at night and when Pop-Pop/Savta watch you but don’t always succeed.

You decided to spread yogurt all over your body and proceeded to erupt in hives. We’ve pretty much decided that anything that can have a reaction to your skin — will.  When you eat dairy you are fine.  When it touches your skin — problems.

You love pulling yourself up and get a big smile on your face when you are standing.  You’re still feeding yourself and are great at it.  Though you don’t eat a lot, you’re a good eater.  You love hummus, chicken nuggets, broccoli, etc.  It’s awesome!

You are such a well behaved little boy.  You love to sleep, are generally in a good mood, and don’t mind being held by other people, even those who you don’t know very well.  It’s pretty much confirmed — we couldn’t ask for a better baby.

I love being with you. I love spending time with you.  Seeing you.  Hugging you.  You’re by far the best thing to ever happen to me and the best part of my life.

With all my love,

Mommy

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Mommy Guilt Explosion

I may have written about this before but I felt compelled to write about it now.

I have guilt.  Mommy guilt.  And it doesn’t go away.  I’m not sure if it will ever go away.  What is my mommy guilt about?

Daycare.

You see baby E has been in day care since August.  We were really lucky (relatively speaking) that D’s job allowed him to stay home with E until then.  I get it — we really were lucky.  I also get that D staying home isn’t what I want.  It isn’t what I crave and what is best for E.

Me staying home is.  Me being with him.  Especially since I’m nursing — I should be with him to make both of our lives easier.  No bottles, no pumps, just nursing.  Mommy and son time.  Bonding.

Instead, I rush in the morning to get everything together.  I take him to daycare where he either stares around or cries the second I put him down.  I mark on a sheet what time he woke up, when he ate, when I changed his diaper, etc.  Then I head to work.  I then rush out of work to get to daycare on time to pick him up.  He’s thrilled to see me.  We get home and I feed him. And then he either crashes or we play for a bit, eat dinner, then nurse again and bed.

One of his daycare teachers — ironically the one I like the least — was there the first day.  That really horrible day when I bawled my eyes out.  That day when I wish I had worn my glasses instead of contacts my eyes hurt so much.  That day.  And know what she keeps saying (or at least has said multiple times?) “See mommy … you’re doing it.” (Or something to that effect.)  The implication being it’s easier, that dropping my baby off to have not-so-stranger-anymore-strangers take care of him all day has gotten easier.

And my response?  ”No … I’m just good at pretending.”

Which is partially true.  There are still those days when I rush out of the room so he doesn’t see me cry — especially when I’ve had him home for a long stretch of days.  But even if water doesn’t always come to my eyes, it’s because I just can’t allow myself to get there.

I can’t allow myself to think about all I’m missing.  All I miss out on not being with him every day.  All the things I don’t get to experience with him because I’m at working so we can live a comfortable life and have good health insurance.

I remember my friend whose son is 6 months older telling me she was relieved when her son was excited to see her at the end of the day — I know the feeling.

Photo from daycare

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10 Month Milestones

According to Baby Center a 10 months old can: (so I’m REALLY behind an am doing this a few days before he turns 11 months … so I might not get all of these right!)

Mastered Skills (most kids can do):

Waves goodbye: He’s able to wave but doesn’t consistently.

Picks things up with pincer grip: Definitely — he’s been doing this for a while (thank you baby led weaning!).

Crawls well: Not at all … but he does get around.

Cruises: Nope … our guy is definitely behind on the gross motor.

Emerging Skills (half of kids can do):

Says mama and dada to the correct person: Not even close.

Responds to name and understands no: Yea … one time he started crying because I told him no. :(

Indicates wants with gestures: He’s doing this but I can’t exactly remember when it started but I think it started before 10 months!

Advanced Skills (a few children can do):

Drinks from a cup: If we hold the cut he’ll drink from it.  He actually loves doing it!

Stands alone for a couple of seconds: Nope … but we know he’s behind on the gross motor stuff.

Puts object into a container: He’s done thing with one of his toys but only recently so we’ll say not really.

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Baby E: Ten Months

So naturally, like ALL my other posts, this one is ridiculously late.  It’s already October and he’s 2 weeks away from 11 months.  But I wanted to do this every month so here I go:

Baby E:

You continue to amaze me, each and every day.  You are sweet and loveable and wonderful.  You are starting to try to pull yourself up — usually by pulling on mommy’s shirt!  That doesn’t get you very far.  Mommy started a second job this month and though it means more time away from you, we enjoy the time we are together that much more.

You are still nursing and going strong.  I’m still amazed that I’m able to nurse and thrilled that (aside from one day for testing purposes) you’ve never had formula.  It is truly better than I could have imagined.  Pumping four times a day for you is absolutely worth it.  I would do anything for you.

You’ve gotten even better with feeding yourself.  At school they call you King E.  You’re very deliberate and meticulous with your food … though that’s NOT to say you’re neat! You really seem to prefer when I give you cooked food versus just steamed veggies — but that’s not always possible.  You’re definitely good with the bottle and have even let me feed you!

I miss you so much during the day.  And part of this month was the Jewish holiday — meaning we had long stretches together.  Which made saying goodbye all the more painful.  I am so excited for how you are growing but with I could spend my time with you.

We are still going to synagogue on Friday nights and you love it … and they love you!  They all ogle you … and you eat it right up.

You still wear cloth diapers — but not as much at home since we’re always cleaning them for daycare!  Pop-Pop and Savta refuse to use cloth when they babysit so we have to put you in disposables.

You’re still such a good baby … and good looking too!  Whenever someone compliments me about how good a baby you are (and believe me … it happens a LOT!) I smile and say thanks … and let them know I’m saying thanks because I don’t think I get any credit.

I love you more than I could ever explain.

love,

Mommy

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9 Month Milestones

According to Baby Center a 8 months old can: (as an aside, E has quite a few friends in similar age ranges … I think this month’s chart is quite optimistic about what each baby can do/should be able to do)

Mastered Skills (most kids can do):

Combines syllables into wordlike sounds: I’ll say yes.  He definitely makes sounds.

Stands while holding onto something: If I prop him against the sofa or ottoman he can hold himself up for a few seconds so sure!

Emerging Skills (half of kids can do):

Uses pincer grasp to pick up objects: Absolutely — he’s got this down thanks to baby led weaning!

Cruises while holding onto furniture: Nope … not even close.

Bangs objects together: Absolutely … and then it winds up in his mouth lol.

Advanced Skills (a few children can do):

Plays patty cake: No … but he seems to enjoy when we play it with him!  And when I hold my hand up he will hit it.

Says “dada” and “mama” to the right parent (is specific): Nope … though daddy would disagree.

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